lub a dub dub

lubbock is much flatter and run down than i could have ever expected. there is nothing green. and it's hot. but the sky is huge and blue and the sun is always out. and i hear the sunsets and stars are something to boast about.

my apartment is wonderful, though a million times messier than my room back at school (didn't think that could even happen). there's a pool and a hottub and my room is really great. i had to be really creative with decorating, but i like it. having my own space is really refreshing to me.

graduation wasn't anything momentous (one highlight- al ottley shaking my hand and telling me he still had snickers for me in his office). it was so much fun to have my roommate/new bff kat fly up to minneapolis. i'm glad she got to see my world and meet my closest friends. my graduation party was such a good means of closure. i had my best friends make me mix cd's and i listened to all 12 of them on the way down. the drive was long, but we stopped in desmoines and stayed overnight at my friend elyse's house. the states got progressively uglier as we drove south.

i feel like i'm going to collapse without structure, so i need to find some soon. i'm really excited to start going to new churches. a part of me wants to go to two services per sunday for a week or two just to truncate the search process. nevertheless, i'm so excited to get plugged into a church community.


i'm being constantly reminded of God's faithfulness and provision in all of these things.

i am being blessed.


in conclusion,
my roommates are sweet and fun and helpful,
i found a great coffee shop called sugar brown's with good music, amazing iced soy chai that i wish would never end. art, and people who like poetry. i'm already making a little creative writing network, which excites me,
i'm coming up with hilarious nicknames for everyone (e.g. bifidus gregularis, bendonesia)
there is little diversity here. i really want to find some,
i made my walls look beautiful- i hung a big square scarf on the wall with pushpins (YES!!! i can nail things in my wall now) and put pictures on it with tack like a beautiful, whimsical make-do bulletin board. i got a huge antique world map and a bookshelf. )i'm going to post some photos on facebook.)
i came home to my apartment to two boys who helped me move my things in and made kat and me a delicious taco dinner,
the heat is really dry so it doesn't actually feel that hot. i'm just happy i can breathe outside,
there are brick streets,
in july (buzzkill?) i'm moving into a pretty old house with wood floors, a fireplace, vaulted ceilings, and the most beautiful kitchen i've ever seen in july,

all the people i've met have made me feel really loved and tell me that i'll find beauty in lubbock in time.

i'll wait.

i have to keep reminding myself this is not a vacation.